Self-love and self-healing have been big topics for those fortunate enough to take advantage of the extra free time this pandemic has allotted. Being someone who focuses most often on how I can take care of others or how I can fix what is broken, that's what I spent most of this pandemic doing. But unfortunately, I spent so much time fixated on the overwhelming brokenness of this world that I broke myself.
I’ve been aware of this brokenness within myself for a while, but waited to actively work to heal and as soon as I made the decision to put my own pieces back together, I have been flooded with social media posts, articles, and documentaries revolving around the topic of self-healing. Somehow, whenever we focus on a topic or an item, they always seem to appear in every avenue of our lives. Like when you get a new pair of shoes and it seems as if everyone and their mother owns those same shoes. It’s not that those shoes weren’t popular or being worn, it’s just that you’ve tuned in to their existence. That is how self-healing and self-love feel to me. I knew they were meaningful topics of discussion, but they weren’t important to me at the time so I simply dismissed them. Now that I have placed them on the radar of my personal journey, I see the existing conversation and I want to contribute. While I am at the mere beginning of my journey to self-healing, the greatest lesson I’ve learned so far is as follows. I broke myself by obsessing over the brokenness of this earth. I felt helpless and insignificant. I felt lost and that I had no real power to make any sort of change. I made myself sick thinking about how sick our planet is. While intending to do better for the world, I ironically inflicted more pain on this planet by sickening myself. Once I made the decision to self-heal and was more receptive to the self-healing content that exists, it all clicked. Someone who has resonated with me most, was Coco Berthmann (@coco_berthmann on instagram), a child-trafficking survivor and activist. She posts often about her self-healing journey and makes the claim that, “Hurt people, Hurt people” and “Traumatized people, traumatize people.” Reading that made me realize that while it is a beautiful thing to have the quality of selflessness, it can become self-destructive, and therefore destructive to society as a whole. Through both my own journey and the journeys of the authors and activists that I have allowed to guide me, I have realized that the work we do on ourselves is just as important and valid as the work we do on the world. We can’t create a better world if we are not bettering ourselves, as we are part of this world. Love always, Jenavieve
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Jenavieve Anna Capri
Hi guys, I just wanted to pop in and let you know a few things about me. I'm a Commercial Dance major at Pace University. I nanny on the side to help me afford living in this beautiful city. I live by the three Ts - Trader Joes, TJ Max, and Target. If it's salted caramel anything, I will gladly put it in my mouth. In my eyes Disneyland is the OG and Disney World will never compare. Hopefully, you'll choose to continue to get to know me more through these blog posts and my social media. Connect With Me:
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